It took me so long to get my thoughts together to compost this blogpost and quite frankly, I am still speechless. I feel like even once I finish this, it still won’t be enough. I feel like no matter how hard I try to convey my opinions and emotions about this issue, there will still be people who won’t listen – and that’s what fucking sucks.
If you are American, or you live near the US, or is aware of what has happened in the past 24 hours, I hope you are as terrified as I am for the next four years of our lives. Donald Trump is the 45th President of the United States. Even saying it out loud or typing it on my keyboard seems like a joke. It hasn’t sunk in to me yet. I don’t know if it ever will.
As a Canadian, I know I won’t be as affected by Trump’s actions as I would be if I lived in the US, but to some extent, Canada will still be affected by his policies (that’s if he even has any). I have friends, PoC friends, immigrant friends, friends who are women, friends who are a part of the LGBTQ+ community, living in the United States and as someone who deeply loves and cares for them, I am so scared. I feel like saying that I’m scared is an understatement. I’m nervous. I’m afraid. I’m terrified. I’m horrified. I’m everything but happy with the result of the elections. It just… I don’t understand how this is real. I feel like I’m alive in the worst alternate universe there is and I’m just waiting to get out but no. This is it. This is real. This is reality and this is happening.
I’ve cried many times today. I cried at 1 in the morning when I saw that the electoral votes were 244-215. I cried when I woke up at 5:30am getting a text from my friend that said “he won and I’m scared.” I cried during my chemistry class today because my teacher said that her daughter came up to her this morning with the biggest frown on her face and said “Mommy, the mean man won.” My teacher teared up and said it broke her heart to see a man who has no respect for women whatsoever gets to run a country rather than a woman who has the potential to actually make a difference. I cried coming home from dinner realizing that I’m not dreaming and this is actually what is going on. I cried watching Miley Cyrus’ recent Twitter video post. I mean, fuck. This isn’t the kind of reaction we should be getting when a president is elected. None of this is right. It’s so bent that I feel like it’s not real.
I can’t comprehend how people in the right mind could compare and contrast between Hillary and Trump and come to the conclusion that Trump is the best fit for presidency. I can’t comprehend that there are people who openly support him. I can’t comprehend that there are women, WOMEN, who voted for him despite of all the disgusting, misogynistic shit that he’s said. I can’t comprehend that there are people who think that he is right, that what he’s doing and saying is all justified and correct. I can’t comprehend that there are people who don’t care enough for the lives of others and would just go vote for a bigoted, racist, misogynistic, homophobic, xenophobic asshole like Trump. I don’t see the logic behind the support he’s getting. I’m a 16 year-old Filipina and it breaks my heart to see that someone who is so misogynistic and has so much hate for someone who isn’t coming from the same race as he is, has become a president of a country that has so much power and impact on the global society.
Hillary has done and said some controversial and problematic things too but she is more fitting for the position than Trump is and ever will be. I don’t support Hillary – I don’t support any of them two, but if I had to vote I’d go for her. At least she has a slight idea on what she’s doing since she’s actually done public service unlike the man who has gone bankrupt, doesn’t pay his taxes, is going to be on trial for raping a 13 year old (by the way, why is this issue not being talked about by the media?), and much much more. The list is endless.
Trump’s win is a win for himself and his ego only. I fear for the minorities who are going to be persecuted more than they already have been, for the PoCs who will continue to receive hatred from White America, for the LGBTQ+ community and having their rights taken away just after they were given to them, for the families that will be separated due to deportation, for the women who will be silenced and told that they are inferior to men.
To the people who voted for Trump, who didn’t vote, who voted for a third party, who isn’t at all in any way bothered by this: I want you to know that your silence speaks volumes. I want you to know how many lives you’ve put in danger. I want you to know that this is all on you. And if you’ve chosen to go blind about how bad Trump becoming president actually is, I have lost all my respect for you. If we are friends and you are in any way a Trump supporter or you sympathize for him even with just a little ounce of you, do not talk to me ever again. Do not consider me as your friend because you do not respect me. You’re now a different person in my eyes and I’m sorry to say that but it’s the truth. Cut your ties with me, I don’t care who you are or how long we’ve known eachother for, we are done. By being silent, I want you to know that you are siding with Trump and his beliefs because if you weren’t you would speak up. You would fight for the oppressed and not side with the oppressor. By voting or sympathizing or even supporting Trump, it is clear that you don’t care enough about other people but yourself. The truth hurts but it doesn’t compare to the hurt, the pain, and the suffering that women, immigrants, people of colour, people in the LGBTQ+ community, and minorities have had to go through all these years.
To the women, the PoCs, those who are part of the LGBTQ+ community, to the minorities and to anyone who is suffering and is affected by the election results: First of all I am sorry. I am sorry that this is what America has come to. I’m sorry that people have become so ignorant and refuse to acknowledge you as human beings deserving of rights. But I want you all to know this: I love and care for each and every single one of you. I mourn and is just as disappointed as you over this. This is a fight we all have to fight and I will stand with you all to do what is right. We will not be silenced. We will not be told that we are less because our skin colour is not similar to theirs. We will not be told that we are pigs or dogs because we are women. We will not be told that we are lazy because we’re immigrants. We will not be told that we don’t matter because we do, every. single. one. of. us. We will fight for the justice that we have always deserved. The justice that the system deprived and continues to deprive us of. I love you all and I live for the strength and confidence that brews in your spirits. That is what we need. High-spirited fighters who are willing to stand up for justice. We have always fought, but now is the time to fight even harder. To stand up for what we believe in. To do what is right and just.
Earlier, I was told today to “get over” this because I’m Canadian but it doesn’t work like that. It is hard to ignore a problem and a social issue like this. I’m a girl, I’m a person of colour, I’m an immigrant. I may not be American but Trump’s hatred towards women, PoCs and immigrants is a direct attack to me because I know that someone like him and people like his supporters have hatred towards people like me just because we are different. Yes, I’m Canadian but that doesn’t mean I will sit here and watch as America sets itself on fire. I will not quietly watch as Trump fucks things up more than he already has.