THE SUNDAY CURRENTLY: VOL. 16

Hello, hello! I haven’t done a TSC since February, it seems like! I totally forgot that I used to make these! But anyway, here’s what’s going on today.

CURRENTLY

Reading
My notes about the brain, its lobes, and the functions. I have a quiz coming up tomorrow for my Psychology class and I have to learn about that. The human brain is incredibly intriguing.

Writing
this blog post and additional notes on the chemistry lab I did in class last Friday.

Listening
to The Girl by City and Colour from my Spotify playlist.

Thinking
about how tomorrow is going to turn out. I’m stressed that I’m not stressed about something I should be stressed about. Anyone else ever felt like that? It’s frustrating.

Smelling
the coffee that’s right beside me and the vanilla bean scent from the Christmas candles my mom bought from Home Sense earlier.

Wishing
for a blessing upon my chemistry mark (it’s not really pleasant). And also to get my crush’s number this week or sometime soon? I have a crush, unfortunately. I hate having feelings.

Hoping
to do good tomorrow and that I pass my quizzes. Lord have mercy on my grades. I am simultaneously working hard and hardly working. I need to do better, I know, but it takes so much work and I have such little motivation to move!! Help!

Wearing
my black Manhattan shirt, pink Christmas PJs, and pink shorts under the jammies.

Loving
the makeup palettes that I bought today – I finally got myself a contour and highlighter kit, and I bought another eyeshadow palette just because. A girl can never own so much makeup.

Wanting
a back massage, a boyfriend, more coffee.

Needing
a 24-hour long sleep. I woke up at 5 in the afternoon yesterday and though it felt really good, I felt like I wasted a day away. It felt so off because I woke up and it was dark outside due to daylight savings time and I was confused whether it was early 5 in the morning or the night.

Feeling
rather sleepy. So sleepy that I could fall asleep while drinking my coffee. And also quite excited! There’s a chance we might go to NYC, Boston and Washington during the Christmas break so I’m happy. I hope the plan pulls through, I’d love to go to Boston.

Clicking
my pen.


I hope you all have/had a fantastic Sunday!

“Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.” — Martin Luther King, Jr.

It took me so long to get my thoughts together to compost this blogpost and quite frankly, I am still speechless. I feel like even once I finish this, it still won’t be enough. I feel like no matter how hard I try to convey my opinions and emotions about this issue, there will still be people who won’t listen – and that’s what fucking sucks.

If you are American, or you live near the US, or is aware of what has happened in the past 24 hours, I hope you are as terrified as I am for the next four years of our lives. Donald Trump is the 45th President of the United States. Even saying it out loud or typing it on my keyboard seems like a joke. It hasn’t sunk in to me yet. I don’t know if it ever will.

As a Canadian, I know I won’t be as affected by Trump’s actions as I would be if I lived in the US, but to some extent, Canada will still be affected by his policies (that’s if he even has any). I have friends, PoC friends, immigrant friends, friends who are women, friends who are a part of the LGBTQ+ community, living in the United States and as someone who deeply loves and cares for them, I am so scared. I feel like saying that I’m scared is an understatement. I’m nervous. I’m afraid. I’m terrified. I’m horrified. I’m everything but happy with the result of the elections. It just… I don’t understand how this is real. I feel like I’m alive in the worst alternate universe there is and I’m just waiting to get out but no. This is it. This is real. This is reality and this is happening.

I’ve cried many times today. I cried at 1 in the morning when I saw that the electoral votes were 244-215. I cried when I woke up at 5:30am getting a text from my friend that said “he won and I’m scared.” I cried during my chemistry class today because my teacher said that her daughter came up to her this morning with the biggest frown on her face and said “Mommy, the mean man won.” My teacher teared up and said it broke her heart to see a man who has no respect for women whatsoever gets to run a country rather than a woman who has the potential to actually make a difference. I cried coming home from dinner realizing that I’m not dreaming and this is actually what is going on. I cried watching Miley Cyrus’ recent Twitter video post. I mean, fuck. This isn’t the kind of reaction we should be getting when a president is elected. None of this is right. It’s so bent that I feel like it’s not real.

I can’t comprehend how people in the right mind could compare and contrast between Hillary and Trump and come to the conclusion that Trump is the best fit for presidency. I can’t comprehend that there are people who openly support him. I can’t comprehend that there are women, WOMEN, who voted for him despite of all the disgusting, misogynistic shit that he’s said. I can’t comprehend that there are people who think that he is right, that what he’s doing and saying is all justified and correct. I can’t comprehend that there are people who don’t care enough for the lives of others and would just go vote for a bigoted, racist, misogynistic, homophobic, xenophobic asshole like Trump. I don’t see the logic behind the support he’s getting. I’m a 16 year-old Filipina and it breaks my heart to see that someone who is so misogynistic and has so much hate for someone who isn’t coming from the same race as he is, has become a president of a country that has so much power and impact on the global society.

Hillary has done and said some controversial and problematic things too but she is more fitting for the position than Trump is and ever will be. I don’t support Hillary – I don’t support any of them two, but if I had to vote I’d go for her. At least she has a slight idea on what she’s doing since she’s actually done public service unlike the man who has gone bankrupt, doesn’t pay his taxes, is going to be on trial for raping a 13 year old (by the way, why is this issue not being talked about by the media?), and much much more. The list is endless.

Trump’s win is a win for himself and his ego only. I fear for the minorities who are going to be persecuted more than they already have been, for the PoCs who will continue to receive hatred from White America, for the LGBTQ+ community and having their rights taken away just after they were given to them, for the families that will be separated due to deportation, for the women who will be silenced and told that they are inferior to men.

To the people who voted for Trump, who didn’t vote, who voted for a third party, who isn’t at all in any way bothered by this: I want you to know that your silence speaks volumes. I want you to know how many lives you’ve put in danger. I want you to know that this is all on you. And if you’ve chosen to go blind about how bad Trump becoming president actually is,  I have lost all my respect for you. If we are friends and you are in any way a Trump supporter or you sympathize for him even with just a little ounce of you, do not talk to me ever again. Do not consider me as your friend because you do not respect me. You’re now a different person in my eyes and I’m sorry to say that but it’s the truth. Cut your ties with me, I don’t care who you are or how long we’ve known eachother for, we are done. By being silent, I want you to know that you are siding with Trump and his beliefs because if you weren’t you would speak up. You would fight for the oppressed and not side with the oppressor. By voting or sympathizing or even supporting Trump, it is clear that you don’t care enough about other people but yourself. The truth hurts but it doesn’t compare to the hurt, the pain, and the suffering that women, immigrants, people of colour, people in the LGBTQ+ community, and minorities have had to go through all these years.

To the women, the PoCs, those who are part of the LGBTQ+ community, to the minorities and to anyone who is suffering and is affected by the election results: First of all I am sorry. I am sorry that this is what America has come to. I’m sorry that people have become so ignorant and refuse to acknowledge you as human beings deserving of rights. But I want you all to know this: I love and care for each and every single one of you. I mourn and is just as disappointed as you over this. This is a fight we all have to fight and I will stand with you all to do what is right. We will not be silenced. We will not be told that we are less because our skin colour is not similar to theirs. We will not be told that we are pigs or dogs because we are women. We will not be told that we are lazy because we’re immigrants. We will not be told that we don’t matter because we do, every. single. one. of. us. We will fight for the justice that we have always deserved. The justice that the system deprived and continues to deprive us of. I love you all and I live for the strength and confidence that brews in your spirits. That is what we need. High-spirited fighters who are willing to stand up for justice. We have always fought, but now is the time to fight even harder. To stand up for what we believe in. To do what is right and just.

Earlier, I was told today to “get over” this because I’m Canadian but it doesn’t work like that. It is hard to ignore a problem and a social issue like this. I’m a girl, I’m a person of colour, I’m an immigrant. I may not be American but Trump’s hatred towards women, PoCs and immigrants is a direct attack to me because I know that someone like him and people like his supporters have hatred towards people like me just because we are different. Yes, I’m Canadian but that doesn’t mean I will sit here and watch as America sets itself on fire. I will not quietly watch as Trump fucks things up more than he already has.

NEW YORK CITY | PART ONE

Greetings everyone! I was supposed to make this blogpost last month but for some reason I just didn’t have the motivation to make it. However, I do have that motivation now and I am having an iced tea and listening to alt-J so I am feeling much more motivated, so here is my New York City trip blogpost! This will be divided into two different posts because this will be long since we did so much stuff and visited a lot of places. So here’s part one of this New York Trip.

If you guys didn’t know, NYC is my favourite city ever and you’ve probably heard a lot of people say that already but I really do mean it. It gives me such a feeling that I don’t get from any other place. Living in Toronto you’d think I’d get the same city vibe that I get when I’m in New York, but nope. I mean, I still do love Toronto, I grew up here so it has a place in my heart, but New York has a bigger place in my heart.

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SEE YOU SOON, NYC!

Hello, folks! I know, I know, I haven’t posted in what- 3 months? I seriously from the bottom of my heart apologize for that (mini) hiatus. I have been so busy with school for the past few weeks and have been putting off writing blogposts for weeks and weeks until it became months.

So, how have you guys been? How has life treated you lately? Anything new?

Well, for me, not much has changed. I’m still the same old me but now living somewhere else. I know I haven’t posted pictures of our new apartment yet but that’s because I only come home during the weekends, I spend the weekdays at my friends’ house where I’m currently living. When school finishes, I’m officially moving in to that apartment. I mean, everything I own is already set up there already. Heck, my parents are already living there! I promise to post pictures of the apartment when I officially move in, which is in two weeks. I have had so much work to do and exams were just this week. But I’m okay now since school is over.

Anyway, enough of my stressful life. I’ve got news for you guys. Yep, I’m going to New York City (again!) this Fourth of July weekend! It was only a brief plan, we barely thought about actually planning the trip. However, my mom still booked a flight and hotel to NYC. We’re leaving Toronto on July 1 to go to the city and as far as I can remember we’re staying in Upper East Side. Since we only went for two days the last time we went and barely got to where we wanted to go, we’re staying there for a longer amout of time this time. And we’re gonna go to as many spots that we want to because NYC trips rarely happens for us so we’re making the most of it this time.

So here is a list of spots I want to visit (in no particular order):

  • Times Square, this is always a must anyways.
  • Empire State Building, like actually see the New York skyline from up there.
  • MoMA!!! I didn’t go the last time and I’ve always been a lover of art so it would be AMAZING to go there.
  • Brooklyn Bridge, actually walk on it.
  • Brooklyn in general.
  • Grand Central just because it looks romantic and reminds me of Before We Go (2015).
  • Maybe see a play? (Hamilton preferably but I don’t have $$$)
  • Eat at Bubba Gump Shrimp restaurant (because my friends forced me to watch Forrest Gump last week).
  • Statue of Liberty, I went last time but never actually got off the ferry.
  • Anything else in between.
  • The MET.
  • 9/11 Memorial.

So that’s it so far, I think. I don’t know where else I want to go because those are the main attractions. I just can’t wait, you know. It’s my favourite place in the world and I would drop anything I’m doing to go there anytime. The city itself gives me a feeling I can’t put into words but it makes me feel happy and new.

Anyways, I hope you guys have a great start of the summer because I sure will! Again, sorry for not posting a lot but I promise I will this summer.

PS: I’m gonna bring back my YouTube because I got a GoPro this week and I’m gonna film while in NYC so you guys should check my YouTube out. Link’s on the right side of my blog.